Irritation and overwhelmness : enthusiastic and confused speaker

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel overwhelmed and irritated whenever someone is speaking in that enthusiastic yet confused way.

When and as I see myself getting / feeling overwhelmed and irritated whenever someone is speaking in that enthusiastic yet confused way -- I stop and breathe.

I realise that I feel overwhelmed and irritated because I don't understand the massage, but I feel like I should, like it is important because it's said in that enthusiastic tone.

I see, that underneath of that is laying fear of not having any control, not having a chance to simultaneously calculate how to respond in a cool way. Lol...

I commit myself to let partner / other to first give that enthusiasm out of them self's - not forcing myself to understand their words in the first try. If I don't understand their point at the and of their speech, I ask them to shortly repeat their points.

I give partner / other space to shape their expression in my presence - because sometimes I would also like them to listen 'that important' discovery of mine which I can't yet explain clear in given moment, but 'I have to' share it with someone.

Procrastination of responsibility that should be prioritized

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to procrastinate with self-support for UP via writing out and expend points that were mentioned in the private interview.

When and as I see myself procrastinating with writing out about UP on bases of the private interview -- I stop and breathe.

I realize that I'm existing as justification, that I already have enough other responsibilities like DIP lite & DIP pro + making list of words for Flasher project. But I see, that I have enough time for all of that, if I just redistribute some time from 'empty' hanging on the internet / FB to self-research...

I commit myself to put UP writings on my schedule 1 time per week for now and when I finish DIP lite, I will increase those writings.

Taste based consumption : commonsense food consumption

When and as I see myself leaving direction to the taste instead of commonsense food consumption -- I stop and I take few breaths.

I realize that the sheet in witch I'm taking notes of intakes & outgives + the effects and consequences is my main direction regarding the food I should necessarily avoid and the food that is supporting me the most / which intake I should increase. 
I see that it would be easier for me if I would have already prepared heartier, but still yummy alternatives of the foods that I should necessarily avoid.
I understated that most of nutrition have some kind of unhealthy feature and when I focus on those, I fall in the trap of defeat and I have excuse for not changing anything...

I commit myself to limit alcohol consumption to 2 times per month. 
I commit myself to replace commercial sweets with pre-prepared homemade healthier alternatives. Let's give myself 2 times per month exception for now -- to stay real...
+ On the visits max 5 pieces of pastry (+I take a look back for consequences of pastry consumption).
I commit myself to put probiotic yogurt on the schedule at least 3 times per week.
I commit myself to stop falling into defeat - focusing on unhealthy futures of the nutrition - I will rather exclude the most obvious ones and keep on using the alternatives while learning how to prepare those effectively.