Irritation and overwhelmness : enthusiastic and confused speaker

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel overwhelmed and irritated whenever someone is speaking in that enthusiastic yet confused way.

When and as I see myself getting / feeling overwhelmed and irritated whenever someone is speaking in that enthusiastic yet confused way -- I stop and breathe.

I realise that I feel overwhelmed and irritated because I don't understand the massage, but I feel like I should, like it is important because it's said in that enthusiastic tone.

I see, that underneath of that is laying fear of not having any control, not having a chance to simultaneously calculate how to respond in a cool way. Lol...

I commit myself to let partner / other to first give that enthusiasm out of them self's - not forcing myself to understand their words in the first try. If I don't understand their point at the and of their speech, I ask them to shortly repeat their points.

I give partner / other space to shape their expression in my presence - because sometimes I would also like them to listen 'that important' discovery of mine which I can't yet explain clear in given moment, but 'I have to' share it with someone.

Awkwardness : desire for control

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to procrastinate with contacting my supplier as I feel a bit awkward regarding the way I should approach him; I don’t want to waste his time and at the same time I want to give him enough attention.

When and as I see myself procrastinating with contacting others as I feel a bit awkward regarding the way I should approach them, I stop and breathe.

I realize that in upper case awkwardness was just a cover for desire for control; I wanted to handle situation in the way that there would be no conflict, that supplier would see me as cool-one and he would keep on supplying me with not-easy-to-get material.

I commit myself to research awkwardness when it arises within me - to see what is behind the scene. With upper case I didn't do that before the action; I just took action alone as a correction.
The result was materialized awkward moment at the end of the meeting, when I thought that the guy will give me hand again and I offered mine, but he was just in turning-around-move before he has left. I was trying to much, lol.
I also see that there is interview about awkwardness in Eqafe - I'm going to listen to it in a few minutes :)