Why don't you just accept what is best for all - including you?!?

When I have first heard about Equal money system in 2011 and then read all about it, it was immediately clear to me – this is it!!! I was very excited and I wanted to spread the word about it between everybody in my circle’s. I expected that most people would see common sense in it, adopt the idea and help to realise it. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exists in belief that others will mostly be similarly excited as I was and that they will see common sense of such system without any problem – as the only obstacle was that they didn’t hear about it yet - and after we spread the voice everything will flow more or less smoothly.

Well, that was really one-of-a-kind case, however -- when and as I see myself existing as excitement about super & all-inclusive supportive idea and belief that it will be adopted by almost everyone who will hear about it – I stop and I take few breaths and then I take a few more.

I see, that people are still quite trapped in their unpractical mentall’n’emotional patterns, especially in victims and tradition/habits characters and personalities, which are preventing them to see a solution when they meet one or to align with it.

I commit myself to stay solution oriented and to not give up in such a cases; to talk with many – to see what is not clear, what exactly is bothering them and then using those points for further debate (after firs writing it out for myself if needed).

Vividness

Few years ago I went to the youth mountain camp as a mentor. When we came on the top of 2000+ meters high mountain, we had hardly deserved snack break. We were already happy with our achievement and we were enjoying usual lunch a lot more then usually, when we got an extra surprise.
Near us was a crow (or maybe two) with opened wings, which were moving rarely as the wind was so strong that the bird was simply floating in the air at the same place. (It had that UFO like movement.)
I was fascinated and others also, there was honest wonder and excitement in the air and everything felt so alive…

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define vividness with (positively) charged moments with a lot of stimulation and/or happening or with moments of calmer satisfaction and to define every day / repeating / usual moments as opposite of vividness…

I see, that my vividness should not be depended on factors outside of me, but it should be inner state, decision of ‘I want to live’, decision of ‘I’m solution oriented’, decision of ‘I want to get to know everything as myself’.

I commit myself to stop looking for vividness triggers outside of me and to start giving/gifting them to myself through fulfilling my potentials. 

Swimming pools re-joyment

Me and my partner are visiting swimming pools relatively often. On the beginning of our relationship there was that playful excitement every time we went to the swimming pools... I felt so fulfilled, totally joyful. After a year or so those feelings have evaporated and I felt like there is something missing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to expected that visiting swimming pools with my partner will always be equally exciting and joyful experience as it was on beginning.

I see, that back then it was all new to me – having him as a partner and new pool-place we have most often visited -- which has contributed to good vibes / excitement.

Later we started visiting saunas more regularly and that became more interesting than just being in place with only pools.

+ When the excitement was gone, my focus went more in my body's responses: occasional twitching of my muscles while on the pool, aching on specific body points after pool time, temperature sensitivity...

When and as I see myself being in the pool, missing good-old-pool-vibes, judging past pool-moments with my partner as better that present ones -- I stop and I breathe.

What is my starting point for going to swimming pools? To relax and enjoy the water - the warmth of it, water massages, the lightness of us being in it... Thus I do that!

If I see that in pool places are growing numbers of things that disturb me on physical level, I change something. I choose different pool with hotter water, less chlorine, I bring magnesium oil with me to prevent twitching…

I commit myself to 'totally' replace desire for excitement / good vibes when being in swimming pools with focus on physical pleasures and self-care and thus give to myself the joy and fulfilment.

Excitement and expectation around making a new dish (cake)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create excitement and expectation around the cake I was planning to make, wanting it as fast as possible, wanting to taste that combination ‘before is even finished’.

When and as I see myself creating excitement and expectation around a new dish that I'm planning to make + wanting that dish to be finished and ready to taste before I even started it -- I stop and breathe.

I realize that feelings are only taking away some of my attention, which would be much better invested if it would be all put into making a new dish.

I see that when expectations are not meet, follows the disappointment, which is really not pleasant state to be in.   

I realize that only in mind I can reach things right away, but they aren't tangible...

I see, that I have a lot work / writings to do regarding the taste component.

I commit myself to ground myself before making a new 'promising' dish. I will give myself the time that is needed to do it, the permission for making mistakes, and I will eat something smaller before, to prevent nervous hurrying.