Me and my partner are visiting
swimming pools relatively often. On the beginning of our relationship there was
that playful excitement every time we went to the swimming pools... I felt so
fulfilled, totally joyful. After a year or so those feelings have evaporated
and I felt like there is something missing.
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to expected that visiting swimming pools with my partner
will always be equally exciting and joyful experience as it was on beginning.
I see, that back then it was
all new to me – having him as a partner and new pool-place we have most often
visited -- which has contributed to good vibes / excitement.
Later we started visiting
saunas more regularly and that became more interesting than just being in place
with only pools.
+ When the excitement was
gone, my focus went more in my body's responses: occasional twitching of my
muscles while on the pool, aching on specific body points after pool time,
temperature sensitivity...
When and as I see myself being
in the pool, missing good-old-pool-vibes, judging past pool-moments with my
partner as better that present ones -- I stop and I breathe.
What is my starting point for
going to swimming pools? To relax and enjoy the water - the warmth of it, water
massages, the lightness of us being in it... Thus I do that!
If I see that in pool places are
growing numbers of things that disturb me on physical level, I change
something. I choose different pool with hotter water, less chlorine, I bring
magnesium oil with me to prevent twitching…
I commit myself to 'totally'
replace desire for excitement / good vibes when being in swimming pools with
focus on physical pleasures and self-care and thus give to myself the joy and
fulfilment.
